'Friendship' Anniversary *rolls eyes*
I hope I wasn’t wrong for blowing up, but I was dreadin’ da obvious, until mah sister put it out there. I got sooo angry, like how you try nd play me? Don’t feed me bullshit nd expect me to believe every word u say. Is it weird to not trust someone who has a girlfriend? Lol sounds crazy but I don’t trust him like I used too. Just cuz I know he has to split his time…one day wit me, one wit her. I get soooo jealous I can’t take it. Cuz imma end up kickin somebodys ass. I know I have to stay in whatever place I put mahself but damn, I dealt wit this for 3 years nd with him overall for 5, I love him deeply but it hurts sooo bad on da inside. I want something I CAN’T have. Its bullshit. I know I’m almost at mah breakin point nd I don’t wanna get there. Imma end up saying some crazy shit I been feeling nd been wantin to say. I never got like dis, usually I’m crying nd emotional but dis time I’m just fuckin angry, dats when I know dis is gettin outta hand or I’m feelin da pressure. Cuz I know he’s not goin to easily let her go, either imma have to put up or let go :-|
