February 2011
7 posts
I know chris brown got mad when he saw Rihanna grinding .
Chris:OH nah nah! that’s my bitch.
Drake:OH nah nah nigga you wish.
Rihanna:OH nah nah.stop this shit.stop this shit.stop this shit.
January 2011
1 post
November 2010
0 posts
I want a BOYFRIEND *blank stare*
October 2010
3 posts
'Friendship' Anniversary *rolls eyes*
I hope I wasn’t wrong for blowing up, but I was dreadin’ da obvious, until mah sister put it out there. I got sooo angry, like how you try nd play me? Don’t feed me bullshit nd expect me to believe every word u say. Is it weird to not trust someone who has a girlfriend? Lol sounds crazy but I don’t trust him like I used too. Just cuz I know he has to split his time…one day wit me, one wit her. I get soooo jealous I can’t take it. Cuz imma end up kickin somebodys ass. I know I have to stay in whatever place I put mahself but damn, I dealt wit this for 3 years nd with him overall for 5, I love him deeply but it hurts sooo bad on da inside. I want something I CAN’T have. Its bullshit. I know I’m almost at mah breakin point nd I don’t wanna get there. Imma end up saying some crazy shit I been feeling nd been wantin to say. I never got like dis, usually I’m crying nd emotional but dis time I’m just fuckin angry, dats when I know dis is gettin outta hand or I’m feelin da pressure. Cuz I know he’s not goin to easily let her go, either imma have to put up or let go :-|
Time overlapse nd dis happens...
I remember when we couldn’t seem to live without talking or seeing each other. I miss dat, now we surrender to distance nd restrictions. Shits real nd I’m stuck between being in love nd being a friend
September 2010
8 posts
I need some inspiration to write a rhyme…I haven’t wrote in a min, any suggestions?
reblog with your nationality.
west indian (bajan) | panamanian | french creole - which is all basically BLACK =|
japanese & black.
Ghanian.
indian ; PR ; black ; white ; italian.
Black nd Pr ! =]
I think I’m fallin for Bruno Mars :-x ; he’s so adorable nd I love how he sings
Question!
How do you know when your REALLY in love with someone? I need to know lol everybody has their own definition…somebody help me out :(
I gotta get mah money right -__- its fall nd I gotta buy me maaaad shit; lord knows how much ish I need smh
“Gossip!, Gossip! Nigga just stop it! Everybody know I’m a mutha fuckin MONSTER; imma need to see yah fuckin hands at the concert!”
—Kanye West-Monster
Insecurities !!!
As usual I’m thinkin…
Sucks when you have insecurities, well everyone has them. Makes you feel a lil crazy cuz your wondering why you like dis, why you don’t have dat, dis should be bigger dat should be smaller…lol soo not fair smh. To be honest some of mah insecurities are basically…since I’m small nd shit, I wish to have bigger boobs. It sucks ass cuz I’m so small on top :-/ I like dat I look young to a certain extent but shit, I sometimes think guys over look dat. Nd I guess mah last insecurity is dat I wish I was a lil thicker, not sayin I want a big ass nd thighs, just a lil more weight, even tho I get told I’m at really good size for mah height nd ish but eeeehh I don’t feel I am. Sometimes I wanna hide cuz I don’t want people to see certain parts of me…lol I know sounds lunatic but I can’t help it :-/ just had to express dat, wonder if there’s ways to gain some weight lol any suggestions hit me up…and don’t judge :-( we all effin go thru it
August 2010
19 posts
R.I.P to mah wifey Aaliyah :’(
She would be killin da game if she was still alive
“I really don’t care if its 3 in da morning, ring mah phone nd I’ll come runnin!”
—Raheem Devaughn-Bring it back
Mah Top R&B looves :)
This is in NO type of order::
1.Chris B
2.Bobby V
3.Lloyd
4.Brandon Hines
5.Trey Songz
6.R Kelly
7. Day26
8.J Holiday
9.Jagged Edge
10.Drake (when he’s singing lol)
11.Total
12.Ryan Leslie
13.Mario
14.Keri Hilson
15.Marques Houston
16.Keyshia Cole
17.Mary J!
18.Neyo
19.112
20.The Dream, Brandy,Ashanti, Amerie lmaoo I have tooo many favs, they would make a meeean playlist :)
Sissy's
I didn’t get to express mah feelings from yesterday so here I go; I officially don’t have ANY sissy’s. I only have ONE sister nd she’s blood. No more saying someone is mah sissy, if I actually got replaced. Dat shit dead hurt mah feelings but whatever, dis isn’t highschool nd I should be able to look over this but it did make me feel some type of way. So it aint nuthin’
“If I say dat I, be your one nd only, promise dat you’ll never leave me lonely”
—Shai-If I ever Fall in Love Again
Nicki looks so cute in dat Letting Go (Dutty Love) video :) I ♥ her ! Oh nd da song is by Sean Kingston
“Cupid doesn’t lie But you won’t know unless you give it a try Oh baby, true love won’t lie but we won’t know unless we give it a try”
—Cupid by 112
Is it?
Now dat I think about it; when I stupidly said no to u dat day, nd u moved on, mah mistake was not movin on too :( now everything is beyond screwed nd idk how were gonna fix it; is it beyond repair?
Lol Lil Wayne is too funny on the ‘Cryin out for me’ remix smh
Officially
I wish I can make it official;
Break it off with u nd I;
So much put into this;
That it makes me wanna cry;
Of how long dis luv has lasted;
Nd how bad I wanna save it;
But you have someone else;
It makes me wanna forget u;
But how can I let u loose?;
There’s so many wishes;
I have upon dis _________;
I guess it was a mistake;
To allow mahself to fall dis deep;
I can’t get out dis hole;
Too far down, I have reached;
All I need is a sign;
To lift me from dis mess;
How can I live without u;
Is mah biggest fear as of yet;
One Last Time
Its finally August, summer is almost over, schools about to start nd I’m ready. I’m just disappointed. I keep puttin mah faith into dis heartbreaker nd he fails everytime. The last couple of weeks since we made up were nice, saw him once a week. We had our deep convos nd jokes. Can’t lie, I miss him but the urge of tears are not as fluent. I cried so bad on friday that on saturday I woke up new. Idk if that’s the last of the tears to leave mah system but I know dat fightin dem to prevent them from comin down is better. I feel a lil stronger but not where I need to be. I wondered if changin mah number would help but I was told to not do dat. I’ll think of about dat. I think cuttin all contact would be best, nd its like I have to build that courage to do it, which I’m tryin. I love him, yes but the lies, fakeness, me not knowing him anymore smh, just can’t deal. I just wish our friendship could’ve lasted. But our so called relationship was confusing nd wrong. So 100205 doesn’t live anymore. Tears formed as I wrote dat but I’m holdin it back. No more tears! I’m stronger den dis! A certain part in mah life he wasn’t there nd I think in due time I can live with it. I just hope he doesn’t pop up again, deep down I feel he is *sigh* shit he was soo important to me nd now he’s gone :( but I wish him the best in his relationship now. I noticed I was the problem all along nd I had to cut mahself out the equation in order to better things. The severity of this mess is high nd mah friend told me dat dis might not be over, but I want it to be. The less I think, see, nd touch him; I can forget. For the last time…I love you nd u were a big impact on me, I enjoyed all our times together nd I wish there was less bad times but hey; we made it this way nd now its time to let go, just like u told me once before…have a nice life. Mourning over u will be awhile but living in mah ♥ will be forever, :-* last kiss goodbye
July 2010
17 posts
“Uh, Use to be valentines
Together all the time
Thought it was true love, but you know women lie
Its like I sent my love with a text two times
Call cause I care but I aint get no reply
Tryna see eye to eye but its like we both blind
Fuck it lets hit the club, i rarely sip but pour me some
Cause when its all said and done,
I aint gon be the one that she can always run to
I hate liars, fuck love Im tired of tryin
My heart big but it beat quiet
I don’t never feel like we vibin
Cause every time we alone its a awkward silence
So leave your keys on the kitchen counter
And gimme back that ruby ring with the big diamond
Shit is over, whatchu trippin for?
I don’t wanna have to let you go
But baby I think its better if I let you know” —Tyga-Dueces
Together all the time
Thought it was true love, but you know women lie
Its like I sent my love with a text two times
Call cause I care but I aint get no reply
Tryna see eye to eye but its like we both blind
Fuck it lets hit the club, i rarely sip but pour me some
Cause when its all said and done,
I aint gon be the one that she can always run to
I hate liars, fuck love Im tired of tryin
My heart big but it beat quiet
I don’t never feel like we vibin
Cause every time we alone its a awkward silence
So leave your keys on the kitchen counter
And gimme back that ruby ring with the big diamond
Shit is over, whatchu trippin for?
I don’t wanna have to let you go
But baby I think its better if I let you know” —Tyga-Dueces
“I shouldve worn all black cuz I should start mourning, tears fallin from it all being lost, I guess its no more, u finally won.”
—Me
“Chris Bree-zy, I SEE YAH DAD-DAAAY! Lmao”
—Lil Wayne; Poppin’ remix -Chris Brown
Hmmm
What do u guys think of…a Guy having 2 girlfriends? Think he’s greedy? Just dead wrong or…I wanna know what ya’ll think…
“Baby your the best part of mah daaay”
—With You; chris breezy
Damn...
Sheesh everytime I hear/listen to chris brown’s Exclusive album, I get soooo emotional omg. 07/08 was a hell of a year smh. Good nd bad but all I know is, dat it was an emotional one….but I love chris nd even tho this album brings not so good memories, I still love it anyway; everything has a meaning, every song has a memory :)
wsup hunn.?
yesss, we do seem to have a lot in common
b/c i absolutely adore(d) aaliyah <3
she's my wife too , we can share her ;)
btw, tough blog (=
Cool :) nd thanks Im tryna learn about this tumblr business, takin me awhile to learn lol but u seem cool, imma be rebloggin alot lol
,ckmdx lqpxlcmpsollakssksdjmc
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“I got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes
Hate in my heart, love in my mind
I seen nights full of pain, days of the same
You keep the sunshine, save me the rain
I search but never find, hurt but never cry
I work and forever try, but I’m cursed, so never mind
And it’s worse, but better times seem further and beyond
The top gets higher the more that I climb
The spot gets smaller, and I get bigger
Tryna get into where I fit in, no room for a n*gga
But soon for a n*gga it be on, mu’f*cka
‘Cause all the bullshit, it made me strong, mu’f*cka
So I pick the world up and I’ma drop it on your f*ckin’ head
Bitch, I’ma pick the world up and I’ma drop it on your f*ckin’ head
And I could die now, Rebirth motherf*cker
Hop up in my spaceship and leave Earth, motherf*cker
I’m gone
Motherf*cker, I’m gone
I know what they don’t wanna tell you
Just hope you’re heaven-sent, and you’re hell-proof
I-I walk up in the world and cut the lights off
And confidence is the stain they can’t wipe off
Huh, my word is my pride
But wisdom is bleak, and that’s a word from the wise
Served to survive, murdered and bribed
And when it got too heavy I put my burdens aside”
Why u gotta be anonymous?
I wanna know! I wanna know yah name! Yah name! Yah name! Lol…sorry was singin bobby V’s anonymous :) just in thought as usual. I need love…like mah OWN, don’t wanna share it with no one…as I’m doin now *side eye* lol Nah let me stop. There’s special people in mah life but they all serve a purpose, who knows maybe one, I’ll find out, one of them are meant for me *shrug* but right now I feel like I’m not gonna get with anyone no time soon. It makes me sad, but I feel like a lot of dudes mah age just wanna do wat they want, bug out nd shit…I’m ready to actually have that ONE. I feel like I’m gettin old :( lol I used to be such a good spirited person nd it feels like it faded, always smiling nd laughin, nuffin used to break me down, even tho I’m sensitive as hell. It takes a lot. I just want someone whenever they enter mah life, to bring that part of me back. Seems the story of mah life is, I’m always upset, with the screwed face, so not me smh *NP Fabolous feat lil Mo-Holla at somebody real* but yea I’m takin applications! Lmao let me fuckin stop :-p
